I'm sorry guys but I needed another outlet to express my grief.

You may have noticed my absence and low participation these last few weeks - this was because my lovely wife was battling cancer. On Sunday 02 September at 5.50 AM she finally succumbed to this most horrid of diseases and passed away.

Her funeral is tomorrow, but I just wanted to post a link to her Facebook (http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=707685059) which I've just had the strength to begin for her and will continue updating.

With you Kane.

^^ My thoughts are also with you Kane.

As are mine.

Many, many thanks. I better get to bed.

Not one for platitudes, but she will still be with you. She has left you (and her other loved ones) physically, but Tanya will always be around, visiting you in your dreams and watching out for you from somewhere. You will meet up with her again, no worries about that.

Lots of love mate (& goodnight).

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I'm so Sorry :ohno: I like what Muse has stated , God Bless her Soul ...we are all with you Buddy :)

I'm sorry Kane. I can't imagine what you, your little ones, friends and family have been and are going through.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

My condolences to you Kane and to your children.
I wish you much strength and courage.

I am very sorry

Oh my word ! I am so shocked and I can't express how sad I feel for you and your family. I am so sorry Kane .... we are all here for you mate. Out of respect for you and your family, I will not be posting for 2 days. My thoughts are with you KANE :(

Deepest sympathies Kane. I can't even imagine. Kia Kaha.

Wow that is really really sad news Kane. Our thoughts are with you and your family.

There isn't much that I can say right now as I am hopeless with platitudes so I can only wish you and your family the best in a difficult time.

Very sorry to hear that Kane. Stay strong.

sorry kane. i don't know what to say but that i'm sorry and sad for your loss.

peace be with you brother.

Very sad to hear, of course my thoughts are with you in this time. I wish there was something comforting I could say but I know words mean nothing in times like these. Just do the best you can.

Oh no! So sorry to hear that Kane. Like the others said, Kia Kaha, and God be with u and your family. Condolences from all of KiwiScrapers

Terrible news, Kane.
I am sorry for you and your children.

as am I

Me too.

I would like to thank everyone for the kind words, understanding and the PM's I have received.

It is very hard getting through the days, in fact I find my self bursting into tears at a moments notice. I am thankful that Tanya and I had 19 years together (half our lives) and 2 wonderful boys. We did get to say our goodbyes that morning, and I held her in my arms as she slept and drifted away.

Our boys are coping remarkably well, thankfully their both so young and just don't quite understand.

I've popped back into work today and I'm finding the routines make things easier. I'll see how long I can put up with it. I'm finding thinking about and planning for other things also helps keep the pain at elbow length.

The boys are now my life. I'm investigating leaving work, going on some kind of DPB or whatever I can get, at least for the summer, and then going back to school for a year to complete my DipED (secondary). That way I'll have next year and all years after, a job that finishes at about the same time as the boys finish school plus the school holidays.

Life goes on and I want to get back to things on the SSC.

I guess keeping your chin up and soldiering on is one of the only ways to bring normality to what must be a terrible situation.

I'm glad that your children haven't been too overtly affected, it does make it slightly easier to cope when you don't have to continuously maintain a stolid position in fear of upsetting them.

I hope things improve for you soon and that you can find some inner peace as the days pass.