Actually, Yugoboy, I already believe you. I've seen many pictures of Sarajevo, and other cities around the world, that have looked horrible because of the weather.
I agree - I simply cannot wait for Bosnia-Herzegovina to be completely united again. There is a part of me, of course, that wants it just to spite the nationalists on all sides that want to break it apart.
The larger part of my heart, though, just feels united with these places. It hurts me to think that the village where my parents grew up is a "country" founded by the people who killed them. I can't wait for the country to be reunited, Yugoboy...if only because then it will be okay to feel the way I feel about Banja Luka, Prijedor, Doboj, Trebinje, and other cities. I don't want to be disconnected from them. They're a part of my country, a part of my body, my heritage.
It's like the old Orthodox Church in Sarajevo. It has what is, without a doubt, one of the best collections of ancient Byzantine relics, murals, and other artifacts. I'm so proud of that but there are...conflicting feelings...that end up getting in the way.
I would give my life for any one of the Serbs burried in Bosnian Army cemeteries; those Serbs who died at our side, fighting to defend Sarajevo from our common enemy. For any one them I was crawl in the coffin alive if it meant they could crawl out. I just want to be able to feel this way about everyone, you know?
And for the time being, I cannot.